Food Stamps

So for the first time ever I had to go and apply for food stamps. The thing that really makes me mad is that if you still have a job, then you have to jumo through all these hoops and it takes a month for them to give u anything. If you are sitting on ur butt at home you get then immediately and get a lot more , plus a cash amount, and various other things. My apt was at 8am which i told the lady was not good for me, but she said I had to come in then or wait two more weeks. So the day before my kids go to the doc and my daughter gets a shot. That night she has a reaction and gets a high fever. So we decided to camp out in the living room so that we could be closer to her and keep an eye on her and my son at the same time. I was soooo un-comfortable and barely slept that night. So I wake up at 7:30 when we should have left at 715 so we rush through and leave at 740. So of course we get there 10 mins late and they had given our apt away. So I can wait and see if someone else doesn;t show up or I can wait two weeks. So me my husband, my 16month old and my one week old are sitting in this dirty waiting room praying that we get in. At 9:30 they finally call us back. I had to bring a whole laundry list of papers. Proof of a mortgage, all the utility bills, proof of income, and 2 forms of id for everyone. Even then I get there and they are asking me for things I don't have and my pay check stubs were not good enough they wanted more. Yet, if I am un-employed I come in and say that, they give me a card on the spot and cash to get started. How the heck is that right? Here I am husband lost his job, I just had a baby and am hard working, and I have to wait a month to get help for my family. Sit back have nothing to eat b/c I have to use all my money to pay my bills and buy diapers. Crazy!

Baby Boy

So we ended up staying in the hospital 2 1/2 days. My epidural did not work at all! My right thigh went numb, I could feel everything else, EVERYTHING. The contractions were so bad and close together I was screaming and asking for someone to kill me. At one point I really thought I was going to pass out I couldn't get a breath between contractions and was in so much pain. I asked the nurse what happens if I pass out? She said "Don;t worry we will wait for you." Funny right? Not when ur in labor. I will never forget that though, I was hoping well we will hurry and get him out before u wake up, it will make your labor go faster, you can have him while ur passed out, but no we will wait for u!! Then I tore again so i could feel all the stitches this time. And on top of that my placenta would not come out so i had to get that manually taken out...holy cow did that hurt too. He was a big boy! My daughter was only 6lbs 4 oz and out he comes at 8lbs 5 oz and 20 inches long! Then poor little guy got a fever that night. My bleeding was un-controllable so they wouldn't let us out the next morning. My mom is staying at my house watching my daughter. that should be very interesting, as my daughter is very shy.

It's Time

So I have been having contractions on and off for a few days now. I am dialated out to 2-3 and the doc says its time. Tommorow Morning (oct 2) we are going in to get induced. Last time it took 12 hours. Doc had to use forceps to get my daughter out. I tore almost all the way from one opening to another and I don't even want to talk about sitting on stiches. Wish me luck that it goes better this time! I am super excited. Hopefully My husband stays awake with me after the baby is birn this time!

What a bad day

So I was on top of the world. With my promotion and my husbands high salary we would finally not be living pay check to paycheck. We could afford to finally have date nights. We could even put money away in the bank! No more praying for mortgage not to come out for a few extra days. So there I am walking thru walmart with my daughter buying things at random, because I can afford it now, and my phone rings. It my husband, and he has locked his keys in the car. i tell him I am almost done be home soon. " I got laid off today, don't buy anything" "Are you kidding?" "No, I wouldn't joke about that." Are you Kidding??? It never seems to fail that nothing can be going good. I am due any second, my mortgage is almost caught up and now we are more than poor again and wont even be living pay check to paycheck, but on the street. I cried the whole way home and most of the night. My husband couldn't stop using profanities.

Promotion

So finally after three years at my job, I am getting a promotion. It was a long hoirrible interview process. I had 4 interviews and was never prepaired for them as I was given no details. Most of all I had such a hard time arranging child care at the last minute, but I didn't want to hurt my chances by trying to re-schedule job interviews. All of this and I am due in two weeks! So today i got called in and the two main bosses went on and on and kept dropping hints that I had gotten it by talking about what the weeks would look like with me on maternity leave and then boom they drop the boom. "we would like to offer you the position, if you still want it." Heck ya I want it! So now I have to work with my direct boos, who I am not a fan of.